i, mitsuko ozawa, am far worse than all of you.
ami. i told you at the hospital, didn’t i? that i’m the worst one of all. first, i should apologize to mr. murata. i never loved you. not once! i knew you were a con artist from the very first phone call. under normal circumstances, i wouldn’t have gone to meet you. but that afternoon, my old classmate taeko had just come to visit. she brought a bunch of stupid kids with her and said to me… “yours is a dead woman’s world. create a scar and move forward! mitsuko, you need to create a scar and move forward!” i was incredibly hurt. hearing that from that damn taeko, i was so hurt i could puke. i always despised taeko. when we were in high school, i always knew… that she was kissing my romeo behind my back and that my romeo was head over heels for taeko. that’s why i despised the two of them. so when romeo died in an accident, i was so relieved. i figured romeo and taeko could no longer love each other. my romeo was separated from that despicable woman and taken to heaven. then romeo became mine. my own masturbation tool. shin. i’m guessing you killed taeko. when i sensed that, it felt so cathartic. i’m grateful. she’s finally dead. i was so happy i practically jumped for joy. she’s watching. serves you right! fucking taeko! taeko, when you and romeo were in the classroom, you lied to me and said you were doing foot massages. i will always hate you. and i hated romeo, too. i hated romeo for lying like that. once romeo died and became mine, my hatred of romeo faded. after romeo died, she began to love me. she appeared before me and loved me all the time. and shin, you probably knew the truth about me from the start. you said i hadn’t been with a man yet, right? that was funny to me, so i kept pretending to be a virgin. me? a virgin? ridiculous. i’ve been a slut since high school. one time, when we were all on the roof, i lied and told everyone i was a virgin. i slept with manami’s boyfriend… i slept with ami’s fuck buddy, kenji. and you, mr. murata, i told you i didn’t do it with mr. sasaki. we fucked like rabbits! why do men like virgins so much? when i was 16, i tossed aside my worthless virginity. mr. murata. after our first night together, you looked for my blood on the sheets. but there wasn’t any, not a drop. so you said, “it’s okay. not all virgins bleed.” i was sneering at you inside. now, why did i go through all this trouble? shin. i sensed that you were a murderer from the very beginning. and… i’ve been yearning for you to kill me. but i didn’t want to die first. i wanted to see that bitch taeko and that idiot jay, and that filthy dad… that slovenly narcissist mom… and that tramp ami die first.